And here we go again!

Being a Mom is just about my favorite thing. I've mentioned before that out of all of the things in my life that I've contemplated doing, being a mom was never one I questioned. One way or another someday I was going to be a mom.
Just under 7 years ago (HAS IT SERIOUSLY BEEN THAT LONG SINCE I FOUND I WAS PREGNANT WITH LITTLE PAJAMA!?!) I unexpectedly found myself pregnant with little Pajama, at just barely 20, and still very much in school, and very much single I remember that positive pregnancy test probably more clearly than anything else. It was one of the most defining moments in my life, and as anyone who has ever had a positive pregnancy test that was taken weeks after your LMP you know how fast that second line shows up (REALLY FAST) there was no waiting, there was the result I was going to have a baby, I was going to be a mom. (Don't get me wrong I am very pro choice, but there was no contemplation there for me for any other choice.) There I was with the one thing at my young age I knew I had always wanted, but so was not where I wanted to be in my life. I cried, like a lot. (Thank goodness for awesome room mates). I knew in that moment I wouldn't ever put myself (or a child) in that position again.

In 2010 I welcomed little pajama into my life, and let everything change. I got a degree a few years later, and after the degree I got a boy friend. That boy friend became my fiance and then back in January of this year we got married. Guess what! Now I get to be a mom again! Everything is happy this time, and little pajama gets to be a big brother, and he is going to be totally awesome at it.

That being said I am at the tail of my first trimester. Nausea is mostly subsiding, and the fatigue is ebbing (for the most part - but lets face it I've been tired since that first pregnancy test; its part of parenthood!) I've thrown up less than I did in my first pregnancy but the nausea has been way way worse. I also have a job now. So that's totally different. Telling your boss, and co-workers your pregnant is way harder than I expected it to be (I still haven't told my workers honestly-- my boss who I'm closer with knows as well as HR but like it doesn't come up organically when you work with middle aged men it just doesn't.). I still have to figure out FMLA and how much I can actually afford to take, but that's another post ( a likely very ranty post).
I've also over all been far less emotional - honestly I think I'm to tired for it. There was admittedly one break down where I was upset with Daddy Pajamas and I melted into a puddle crying and screaming at him at the foot of our bed.. like onto the floor at the foot of our bed. I don't for the life of me remember what I was upset about (it was REALLY irrational) it passed quickly and all was forgiven.  But no tears over things like the Incredibles which turned me into a blubbering mess during my first pregnancy.

Some things that will definitely be different this time, I have a house I can actually put baby things in! I have a whole room I can put a baby in with its things! (Trust me I am fully aware though that despite the being growing inside of me will have its own bed I'm still going to co-sleep so maybe we will end up putting Daddy Pajamas in the baby's room instead! jk dear.. I think) This means lots of research, I have this whole compulsion to like "do things the right way this time" whatever that means.
I still have some of my loved products from the first time around, crib, awesome Eddie Bower high chair (my kitchen accidentally matches this high chair...or my tastes haven't changed much either way its cool!), and a nice jogging stroller plus a few other items. But this all also means I've done this rodeo and I've learned a lot in my 6+ years of parenting, but a lot has changed in whats available too.
At least I know more about what I want versus what an inexperienced parent may think they want (Me included!) I'm excited to have the chance to get to do things "the right way" this time.

Its going to be a fun ride, so we'll see now that its all public like, I can try and post more.

Summer What's That? And Moving With a Four Year Old??

This is the first summer in a long time where I have an actual schedule I can't manipulate around home work schedules and my own desires. Being a working Mom isn't easy. Its easier than being a broke Mom, but its been particularly hard since Little Pajama has been out of the preschool for the summer. Not only has he been out of school but our weekend's have been chalk full of things we've had to do.

This is mostly why I haven't had a chance to chronicle the misadventures of Little Pajama and I lately. I've been busy and exhausted. No more are summers left to the whims of a bicycle and whatever adventure I want to take. Every time I whine just a little everyone likes to warn me I likely wont have another completely free weekend until I am old and decrepit. I guess I will start having to say "no". This is one of those words that we forget is important. Sometimes you just need to say hey world, no I'm not going to put on real pants this weekend, no I am not going to put on a bra. Also if I dont feel like brushing my hair, guess what I'm not going to!

Unfortunately though there is SO much that I need to get done. There have been some pretty major highlights to this summer so here are a few.

• The bf and I celebrated our one year! It's fantastic and we couldn't be happier. 
• Little Pajama has started with the "D" word. My man is officially known as Daddy, and I couldnt be happier about it. Sure it scares me a bit but I am happy that they came to this place mostly on their own. They are pretty much the cutest boys in the world so I'm glad they get to be adorable together. 
• WE MOVED! The man and little pajama and I now are renting our very own 3 bedroom dwelling. Little man has his own bathroom, and bed room. We have an office/ guest room. 

This is probably the biggest and most exciting thing to have come from this summer. Its a big step for us, but its wonderful and we are so excited to get to start this next chapter. There are a few different things I'd like to do to make sure I am raising a happy healthy little pajama and I am hoping that this is the best time to start enacting some of these stratgies. Stay tuned to see what works and doesnt work for us as I am sure there will be hilarity to ensue. Maybe also some great things that workd for us and some fails that didnt work so well... After all part of being a mom is getting to share your triumphs and having an ability to laugh at your failures is a good thing that works too. 

One of the most important steps we took in this move was making sure Little Pajama had some say in things. We let him pick the paint color for his accent wall (sort of he insisted on dark blue, so I had to put my foot down.) I started him a donate bin (which we will hopefully be able to take at least part of to a womans shelter.) He was horribly unwilling to put anything in the donate bin at the begining but by the end he started to realize that these toys were going to go to kids that would hopefully actually appreciate them. Toys he wanted to keep go placed inside of boxes for the new place. 

Another thing that helped was that he got to go out of town with his grandparents during moving day, and then again for most of the unpacking (HELLO SUMMER!) Were all still unpacking some of the smaller stuff, but were also still adjusting. Over all though he seems excited about the new place, and that's whats important to me. In fact we have some unpacking of his toys to do today because I felt it important for him to get to unpack what he originally packed. 

I guess I better get to work. Hopefully I'll have another update up soon.